When Worlds Collide

The last few days I’ve had the pleasure of hosting two friends from out of state in the waning days of a fabulous Pacific Northwest summer. These friends are a delight. We laugh and chatter and share. There never seems to be a shortage of things to talk about. It’s as if we’ve known each other for years and in reality we only recently met less than a year ago...online. We were discussing how randomly we ended up connecting in the big world of social media. What if we had skipped checking the news feed at that exact moment or hadn’t ‘friended’ the mutual person that connected us all? These women have gone from ‘online friends’ to real life friends in the course of months. What intrigues me more than the successful transitions from social media relationships are the relationships that will forever only be virtual. Why is it that some relationships can move beyond the pages of social media and email while others will remain forever intangible? In some ways, relationships on the page can be more intense and emotional than the living breathing ones you can touch and feel. Why is that, I wonder? I’ve contemplated this question for weeks now. The forever virtual friendships allow us to be whoever we wish be it authentic or fantasy. Whereas the face to face relationships contain a level of accountability not necessary in virtual interactions. Does one have more or less value in our lives? Is quantifying even necessary? Sometimes it begs the question: is it a real friendship or one of nebulous fiction? Obviously every connection is unique and should be treated as such but these questions rattle around in my head from time to time and I wonder if I’m alone in the contemplation. For today, I’m going to wander out to my living room, curl up on a sofa and sip tea with my friends and enjoy a day of laughter, a few hugs and appreciate that in this big wide world the “like” button has led me to two amazing people.

Wordy Friends

I don't think it will shock anyone that I'm a bit of Syd Parker fan.  I mentioned her book in my first novel, I have her blog linked here, I stalk...errr...I mean follow her on Facebook.  What can I say?  I dig her work...a lot.  She's one of the writers who inspired me (cajoled might be more accurate but why quibble?) to get off my ass and publish my book.  The chick is the real deal.  She writes a book you don't want to put down and that you'll likely read more than once.  Since this is my blog and I have all of...ohhh...ten readers....I get to plug her new books when they come out.  I'm a few days late but I thought I'd actually show some decorum and let her bask in the glow of her first few days of a release...for a change.

I've read this book (more than once).  I will tell you what I told her: it's her best work to date.  She gets stronger and better with every book.  I recommend it (or any of her works) even more than my own.  As I said, she's the real deal.  It's worth the price of a large venti froo froo coffee to buy this book NOW.  Right now...click here...seriously: 
 http://www.sydparkerbooks.com/Books.html

Did you click the link yet?  Hurry!

Honoring

Wanting what cannot be is a yearning that never really leaves; it just gets quieter with time. This week I’ve spent so much time contemplating the want inside of me for things that cannot be or will never be again. Grieving loved ones, missing those who are no longer here to touch, to hold, to hear is all a part of life. This week I grapple with how to honor it and move through it all at the same time. The last year has been filled with nonstop change; some good and some not so good. I’m a firm believer in learning from the joys and travails of this life but in weeks like this one I wish I had fewer lessons.

Infinity's Song - A Journey to Sing Out Loud

I wrote my first novel Infinity’s Song in 32 days from start to finish. It was a purging of sorts because in reality that book was written over 25 years in my head and in my heart. Close friends have told me they can’t read it because “it’s too close”. I smile and say that I understand. And I really do understand. But Infinity’s Song wasn’t written about my marriage or my life. It was written because I felt strongly that in lesbian fiction myself and other women like me are missing. Women who have been in committed long term relationships, who have no need to stray or look elsewhere are underrepresented (as are women of color, working class women, older women and several other groups). For years I read love stories and put down the book at the end and thought, “What happens in twenty years?” That was the place that I began when I sat down on May 1st 2012 and began telling the story of Cass and Helen. If it holds pieces of my life that look familiar to friends all I can say is, “I understand.” I write what I know.

However, Infinity’s Song is so much more than a first novel. It represents a coming to a place inside of me where I finally trusted my voice. Something happened when I turned 40. I woke up and decided to live life the way I wanted and wasn’t going to worry about what others thought. It would be disingenuous of me to pretend I did it alone. My soon to be ex-wife was and is my biggest supporter. My closest friends cheered me on and occasionally picked me up, dusted me off and told me to get back out there. Once when I suggested perhaps that I could just be happy I completed the book without actually publishing it one friend in particular used the single best tactic only a true friend would use: guilt. She pointed out how incredibly sad it would be that she would never have the opportunity to hold my book in her hands. We lovingly say she shoved me out my closet (and locked the door so I couldn’t get back in). Guilt and coercion aside, writing Infinity’s Song was my coming out, stepping up, being brave and looking at this big world and offering my voice to the larger conversation.

My journey to sing out loud (lyrics from a song given to me by a dear friend) took 42 years. Now that I've learned I don't plan on stopping any time soon.

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The Next Big Thing Blog Hop Continues into 2013

I've been meaning to start this blog for many many weeks. It's the first day of a new year and in December I was kindly tagged by Bev Prescott in “The Next Big Thing”–Blog Hop 2012". I'm finally responding to her tag in my first posting here.

I so am grateful for Bev's support and encouragement. Bev Prescott is a fabulous author and blogger. Check out her blog at http://bevprescott.wordpress.com and read all about her newest book on her own Next Big Thing Blog post here: http://bevprescott.wordpress.com/2012/12/12/the-next-big-thing-blog-hop-2012/


So here are my answers to the Next Big Thing Blog Hop:

1. What is the working title of your book?
Infinity’s Song


2. Where did the idea come from for the book?
This is my debut novel and it began as a question. What happens to the “happily ever after” in ten or twenty years?


3. What genre does your book fall under?
Lesbian Fiction


4. Which actors would you choose to play your characters in a movie rendition?
This was the hardest because I have a unique picture of each character in my head and I’m not a huge movie watcher.

Cassandra: Not an actor by trade but the closest visually is the singer Grace Potter.
Helen: Heather Peace (but with an American accent)
Gigi: Jane Lynch
Meli: Kathy Bates


5. What is the one-sentence synopsis of your book?
After eighteen years, in the face of losses both new and old, Cassandra and Helen are fighting to find themselves, as well as rekindle their connection to save their marriage.


6. Will your book be self-published or represented by an agency?
Self-published


7. How long did it take you to write the first draft of your manuscript?
The first draft took a month to write. (It’s amazing how much time you gain when you give up television.)


8. What other books would you compare this story to within your genre?
While I would never presume to compare myself to these two writers, I have said in the past that this book cae about because RE Bradshaw and Syd Parker started a conversation in my head about women over thirty-five and I wanted to participate in that discussion.


9. Who or what inspired you to write this book?
My own twenty year relationship and conversations with friends who have been married for a long time inspired this story.


10. What else about your book might pique the reader’s interest?
Cassandra's and Helen’s journeys of self discovery and reconnection will resonate with women who have been in long term relationships who crave or miss that “spark” that can often fade with time.

To keep this moving into 2013 I am supposed to tag other writers. Please check out these fabulous women who inspire me daily.

Syd Parker: author of six full length, can't put them down, you'll read them twice novels and a great blog too. http://sydparker.blogspot.com

Beth Burnett: author of Man Enough and an entertaining blog to boot. http://bethsnewlife.wordpress.com

L.t. Marie: author of Three Days and One Touch and a seriously steamy blog. http://ltwritingromance.blogspot.com/

Meli Coulson Lussier is an up and coming poet who has more talent in two paragraphs than most writers have in a life time of work. Check out her work at http://www.facebook.com/melismusings

May 2013 bring us all good reading, love and laughter...